It's all about integrity. Here I am relaxing at home when I should be at work. And there's so much to do at work since Inventory Day is around the corner, May 8th is the day.
On one hand I feel okay with myself because I let my supervisor know that I was feeling down with my chronic back pain since Monday afternoon.
In the past, I would feel guilty whenever I got to stay home and I was supposed to be on duty.
The guilty feeling is still there but is not as pervasive and overwhelmingly in my mind.
I am in peace more or less with myself. I am not faking it. My back really hurts and I sincerely wish I could be more productive. That's the difference. Being true to one self.
Hey, there's and irony here!
An ironclad milestone. And being careful about the language that I utilize here, it might be wiser to say that I have reached a turning point.
It's written all over.
My back hurts and OTC painkillers don't seem to have a lasting effect. This morning while doing my 30-day inventory audit, the pain became unbearable that I decided to stop and call it quits.
Yet, in my mind, that was the right thing to do. I needed more rest and peace of mind.
This is an acomplishment on my part. It's not about the pain nor the guilt really. is about being honest and true to one self.
As I tried to learn in the past. One should know when to admit defeat and realize that God and only God can overcome any snags that impede or slow progress in one's personal and spiritual growth.
Wow, I really got inspired today. At what cost? you might ask. Well. nothing like a numbing and very unpleasant lower-back pain to bring me literally to my knees and see thing in a different perspective. It makes one a little humble.
Thank You God!
Thy Will Be Done.
On one hand I feel okay with myself because I let my supervisor know that I was feeling down with my chronic back pain since Monday afternoon.
In the past, I would feel guilty whenever I got to stay home and I was supposed to be on duty.
The guilty feeling is still there but is not as pervasive and overwhelmingly in my mind.
I am in peace more or less with myself. I am not faking it. My back really hurts and I sincerely wish I could be more productive. That's the difference. Being true to one self.
Hey, there's and irony here!
An ironclad milestone. And being careful about the language that I utilize here, it might be wiser to say that I have reached a turning point.
It's written all over.
My back hurts and OTC painkillers don't seem to have a lasting effect. This morning while doing my 30-day inventory audit, the pain became unbearable that I decided to stop and call it quits.
Yet, in my mind, that was the right thing to do. I needed more rest and peace of mind.
This is an acomplishment on my part. It's not about the pain nor the guilt really. is about being honest and true to one self.
As I tried to learn in the past. One should know when to admit defeat and realize that God and only God can overcome any snags that impede or slow progress in one's personal and spiritual growth.
Wow, I really got inspired today. At what cost? you might ask. Well. nothing like a numbing and very unpleasant lower-back pain to bring me literally to my knees and see thing in a different perspective. It makes one a little humble.
Thank You God!
Thy Will Be Done.
 |
| Ana Maria with little Matty, Raquel, Sarah, Miguel Jr, Marla and Zeus.Dec.27, 2011 |
No comments:
Post a Comment